Hi guys..
Its already 2:11 am ..And ya i'm still awoke.
WHy?
I was waiting for this file which my sweet beloved W25R had uploaded
which i guess contained all the memories of the class..
BUt sad to said i've been waiting for it from like 12:00 and til now..
ANd when it just had full downloaded..
i CAN"T OPEN it~
I feel like crying....
I was so eager to see the file ..
AND this is what happend to me?
*SIgh~
IS just not my luck....
Even though sometimes i do feel a bit left out from my class i do care for them..
and to Ifa...
ya ..
hope you are reading this...
i always wonder..
Why do i always feel lonely?
Where are my friends?
Why they always left me?
Is it because i'm the one who is running away from them? or it's just that they won't want to be friend with me?
AFter i think back, i did try to approach them..
but even though i'm there sitting there with them..
i feel like i'm invisible..
they treat me as if i'm not there ..
really!..
i never realise that i had invisibility power..
sometimes..questions kept pop up
WHy? WHy? Is it me? or them?
am i faith not to have friends that i can last with?....
to rely on??
Actually is not just in Poly...
it already happened to me from primary to secondary and now ...
could this problem be solve?
is it gonna follow me till i'm old?

i guess that is why God gave Zul, he was the one who save me from this loneliness...
where i actually met him from CHat world..
YUp! Chat world...
at that moment of time i felt so desperate to have a friend..
to share stories..
to laugh..
and i don't care if it did put me to danger..
i JUst want a friend!
He was the one who always there for me...
thank you...syg.(to zul)
he is not just a good boyfriend...
he is a good advisor..
a best friend...
a lover...
a good cook too..

That is why i'm close with him...
because he is the one who will be there for me during ups and downs..
ANd i love you ...

And this is for you...
"Bila Zul rindukan Amy pandanglah pada bintang yang paling terang sinarnya...
percayalah pada hti bahawa insan yang dirindui juga sedang merinduimu"